After a night of crying and thinking , i've got what i needed to know .
Its her opinions , her words , her thoughts ,
Not his , and i believe he will never do that to me (i hope) .
Knowing that there's that little possibility is enough for me to be happy .
I dont know if im considered the victim here , or her (?)
But whatever it is , i hope i wont regret my own decision .
Im holding on , yes i am .
Maybe i was just jealous , or maybe i just dont have confidence in myself , no confidence that i'll ever be the one he really loved.
After everything , i still trust him , love him , miss him . Yes i do .
But the fact remains , I lack self confidence and i dont know how to express/control my own feelings .
I get too emotional sometimes , and the tears just roll down .
So i really dont know how am i gonna be stronger , stronger than before .
Someone help me please ?
I dont know if you'll be there for me when i needed you the most .
But hey , all i need is a shoulder to cry on , thats all .
Is that too much to ask for ?
Boy, i really do love you ):
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Just ignore that previous post ,
it doesnt matter anymore , i guess .
Im over it , and im pretty sure im alright now .
Yes , i'll try to cheer up , and thanks for all of your concern guys [:
I love you all laaaaa ♥
Anyhooos ,
Yay , its raining :B
I super love rainy days , and i have no idea why .
You may say its weird ,
But rainy days make me calmer :X
Yadahs , its not a joke man , im so darn serious about it la .
Hmms .
I have no idea what im posting , but its just to clear up for the previous post [:
Dont ask me what i post in the symbols , try figuring it out yourself .
A whole lots of rants and tears , so i dont think you would want to read it yo .
I've edited that post , read all you want , i didnt change anything in the symbols so dont worry about me removing some parts , cuz i really didnt .
I dont think i should hide anything , lest hiding it from myself too .
So go ahead and read , comment , think .
Thats how easily i get hurt .

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