Nothing is forever,
No matter how long you want it to last.

Was bored so was looking through my archives.
As i read my past post(s), tears began to fall. Really, finding out the truth hurts, alot. I hate this feeling, hate it hate it hate it.

This, i have to let it out. Its been bugging me for the whole week.

I think i have the every right to say this, since this involves me. And i really dont care if it affects our so called "friendship", if you even regard me as a friend. I need to voice this out.

Girl, spreading untruth stuff isnt fun okay. Whats worse is when you can act completely nonchalant about it in front of me, and try to act like you're a nice friend showing concern for another. You know what, hypocrisy gets you no where. Sure, i understand everyone has two sides to their nature. But in your case, its more than two sides. If you have the guts to say such things behind my back, thinking and assuming that i dont know, why not make it to your convenience and say it in my face? This way, you can save all your secrecy and whispers jsut to prevent me from knowing what you're saying. Seeing me angry or upset makes you happy, makes you feel good huh? Sad to say, but in my point of view, that is very saddistic. Before you start judging anyone, please take a look at your yourself in the mirror first. So what if you have a pretty face? This pretty face is of no use if you have an ugly side. Behind this pretty face is nothing but a bllack heart. Your behaviour and your attitude is what makes you ugly. Nobody is born perfect, neither are you. They cant choose how they want to look like, neither can you. So whats the point in judging others if you yourself aint perfect? All those things that you said could hurt someone in the process. Maybe you dont bother, but if the same thing happens to you, how would you feel? I guess all you would do is start cursing and swearing huh. Plus, you cant go around saying others copy you, or who go around copying who. Because, we all dont know who started the whole fad. If all you can say is this person likes to act, that person likes to act, please do think whether you do act too. You dont have to be specially nice to me to sound me out, to know what happened. Nobody likes their secrets to be divulged or on the verge to being let out. Couldnt you at least try and put yourself in others' shoes? Knowing you, you would just push all the blame to others. Spare a thought for others at least, they are not your toys for you to push around as and when you like. Stop being so self-centered, the world dont only revolve around you. Im a pampered princess? Hah, i think you're a spoilt brat with no discipline. Three years, and you hadnt changed abit. You know, i dont even bother whether you like me or not, because i clearly know, i dont like you a single bit (:
Lets take it that i befriended the wrong person as a friend when i was in Sec1, when you knew nobody, when you were all alone. For all i care, you dont even deserve her as a friend. When you're pissed with her, you called her a bitch behind her back. To think, she actually treats you like her true friend, her closest friend. Yet you dont even treasure this friendship with her.

Lastly, to play a prank on someone's mistake on April Fools, is not funny. You wanna see my reaction huh ? I'll tell you this, "You're one saddistic little girl who still hasnt grown up :D" Continue being like this, when all your "friends" eventually leave you, dont regret, because by then its already too late.

Now, i no longer regard you as a friend. I doubt you'll reflect on what you did anyway.
I know you know i know you stalk my blog everytime (:

On a somewhat 'brighter' note,
6th , Full Dress Rehearsal.
7th , Assembly Performance.
9th , Speech Day.
14th , SYF !

See how close all these dates are ? I have to wear contacts for all of them, shit. My eyes is gonna get swollen after that, gah -.-Its like less than 2weeks to SYF, and i dont think im ready yet. I cant speak for my whole team, but i know everybody's starting to get stressed out.
Chill yeah, lets not take what SHE say put us down, im sure we'll all do our best on that day (:

And my injury's not okay yet. It still hurts when i danced yesterday. Surprisingly Mrs Lim was somewhat concerned about my injury. Hah. Just hope it gets better soon. Please get well before Speech Day, *oh please oh please oh please*.

My stupid Msn is hanging on me now, and it keeps hanging every now and then, ahhhhh ! *smacks lappy*
I have serious anger management issues, damnit -.-

30thMarch , Monday.
Happy Birthday Hazwani ! :D
Not a good day to start the week. All the lessons before recess was okay. Had Chemistry test, it wasnt as hard as i thought it would be, lols. Social studies was hilarious, hahahaha. Ohoh ! And my dear Nadia brought her home-made cupcakes ! Damn cute, and its chocolate ! :D LOL, i love anything to do with chocolate :D Zuhairi bought the KinderBueno which he owed me and Nadia too [: Thankkkkkkks alot ! Double dosage of chocolates, so my overall intake of chocolates for that day was highhhhhhh. Shit, im getting fat , gahhh =.= Oh and i managed to finish my Maths ex4.2, for once ^^ With help, of course. I cant cope with maths, sighs .
Physics suckeddd. Got sent out of class because i forgot to sign my Physics Makeup lesson consent form. And guess what, he went outside and talked to half the class who were outside, and told us to go back in -.- Those who forgot to bring textbook had to go out, AGAIN. LOL, luckily i brought, hahahaa. Maths was okay, thoguht what she taught didnt exactly got into my brain, hah. Assembly, watched the drama's syf piece and band's. And i was busy reading Teresa's reader digest, lol. Went back to class, the guys played with lighter and deodorant(sp?). And its near my seat okay , i was packing my bag there somemore -.- But it was cool, hahahhaa.
Went for detention after that. Why? 'Cause i wore P.E shirt during Cheering Competition. Ridiculous, but i went anyways. Detention is boring, guys were throwing paper balls here and there. Went for SpeechDay rehearsal. It sucked. We waited 3 hours, and still nothing. In the end, went on stage for that few seconds and they say okay can go home already. Like wtf. Wasted my time. I got abused by Pearlyn again! Rawr -.- LOL, me Afiqah, Nabila and Liting started bitching, and had serious heart to heart talks with each other. Cool sio, seriously [:
Watied for bus with Vanessa and Liting. But Liting went off with her friend, thus left me and Vanessa. Darren.E came, and we chatted. Waited darn long for the bus, 3 T's in a row ! Gah. Finally bus came. Sat at the back with Vanessa, chatted and alighted one stop before her, with Darren. Damn dark and couldnt remember how to walk home =.= So we just walked randomly and still managed to walk the correct route, lol. Just because i lived next block to him, he says i stalk him, tsk . Reached home around 8.

i injured my hip during Wednesday's P.E lesson, 2.4km run. A sudden pain as i was running, but i ignored cuz i thought it was jsut stiches. Didnt know it still hurted so badly after P.E. Have yet to see a doctor yet, sighs. Will find time to .