Doubts.
Any comments about this post, to yourself. You wanna comment about it, go ahead. Low life.

You know what, forget it. Whatever i said to you just forget it. Whatever i meant to say, just forget it. Seriously, nobody knows how much it hurts to know okay. This week has been a really rough week, im already stressed out. I cant cope with my schoolwork, i dont have enough rest, im going home late everyday because of dance practices and i sleep in almost every class because i dont have enough sleep. Even my POA teacher can tell how stressed out i am. I really want to talk to somebody who's willing to listen, without a hint of unwillingness.

I dont want to turn back, i dont want history to repeat itself. I dont want everything to go back to how it was. I dont want the past. I dont want these kind of life. I dont want everything. I just want myself back. Its getting really hard for me to smile like as if im really happy. So what if i screamed, i shouted, i laughed, i smiled ? All for the sake of putting on a brave front ? Whats with all these. So much for trusting huh. A bunch of crap, bullshit.

I know there's still dance and my studies to cope with. But if i could really cope with them, why should i be bothering about all these now. This feeling sucks okay. Wrenched up inside, maybe you dont know how hard it is for me to say, to talk to you about whatever i had already said. Whats the use of saying all those now, its all too late, and i cant turn back time. Time, if we could control it, i wouldnt want to know how it feels at this part of my life.

我已经好累, 好累了.

Thankyou Nadia for listening to me in class and comforting me when i needed it, Shanhuai and Edwin for willing to listen too. Hearts.

Its over, everything's over. Im over crying, over thinking of it, over trusting. From now onwards, its me , my close friends , my family, dance, my studies and nothing else. No you , no doubts , no more.

You said you'll still be there when i needed you, but where are you now. You dont even care anymore.