"The greater you hope, the greater the disappointment."
How fucking true is that, seriously.

I feel so stupid everytime i hope for something so much, in the end, i end up hurting myself. Argh. And it's for sure, not PMS, thankyouverymuch. I was already like this even before my period started. So with or without it, my moodswings will still be constant. I hate myself manszxc. My whole life is turned upside down. :( I don't like the way things are now. I have no motivation for my studies, my mood is always going up and down, i feel all alone. At this point in time, i might just break down totally. It's so hard, just too hard. Writing in my diary doesn't help either :(

On a lighter note,
Although my birthday wasn't as good as i hoped it would have been, but still am happy with the fact that people remembered my birthday ^^
Many thanks to everyone for the wishes and gifts, me luv you all , ♥.
Especially Krismine and Venus&Co. Luvvvvvv.
And Dear too.
(i know it prolly wouldn't make any difference now. but i do mean it. so much.)

Lastly, here's wishing Edwin a very happy 15th birthday.
You're 15 already, grow up please. (:

Off to private blog ! Ranting session start. Byeeeeee.

and i feel that, we're drifting apart all over again. once is enough. i dont want to go through the same thing again. not this time. its hard enough having to face everything alone. i dont want to lose you again.